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The night before…

November 3, 2017

The night before….

There cannot be many who have not had anxiety on “the night before”.

You prepare, you procrastinate, you plan on how you will maximize the most of the hours between now and that moment and then you realize the heaviness of what you are about to step into.

The night before that final exam.

The night before your wedding day.

The scheduled arrival of your baby.

The night before the finalization of your divorce.

The night before your job interview.

The night before you plan to confront the one who reduces you to tears.

The night before the funeral.

The night before your surgery.

We, my beloved and I, are now here, and I think of those who have been here before us and those who will be here after us.

Tomorrow we step foot into the unknown and it is not a friendly territory.

Tomorrow could be the last day, or tomorrow could be the first day.

Or tomorrow could just be another day in this most difficult chapter of life.

Tomorrow is hours away and it scares the calm out of us.

As I prepare to lay down and try to sleep for a couple hours I think of so many who have dreaded tomorrow.

I feel with deep empathy those that have shared this anxiety, fear, pain, stress and worry during the night before.

And before I kissed my beloved goodnight on this night, I assured him that there is One who understands “the night before” and who has pled, cried, bled and begged through it.  One who couldn’t even count on His best friends to stay awake with Him.  One who knew where He was going was better than where He was yet He didn’t want to walk the path from the night before to the next day.

I reminded my beloved of this:

Matthew 26:36-46 Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.”  He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. 38 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”  Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”  Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.” He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.” When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy.  So he left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing. Then he returned to the disciples and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour is near, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us go! Here comes my betrayer!

So here I sit on the night before as the hours become minutes and the distance between now and then begin to rapidly rush to meet one another, I listen to my beloved as he sleeps and I think of you.  If you are the one who is to walk the walk may you feel the strength from the One who walked it before you feeling the power fill your every weak cavity.  If you are the one who is to walk beside may you feel the strength, love and peace of all of us who are awake with you hoping for your strength to be enough.  No one asks to be in this club and no one earns a merit badge from walking through it, however….on the other side of this night, after the struggle, pain, trials, battle wounds and scars you need to know that you will be in the company of not just One who understands, loves and embraces you as the warrior that you are, but of many.

Stand strong and know you are not alone.

You are not alone.

Power yourself from within with the strength of those who have kept watch through a very similar night before, and then bravely walked the journey toward the day after.

You are a warrior, you are stronger than your greatest challenge, you are greater than the most negative voice in your head.

Channel in and hear the battle cry of those who have prevailed; step forward and conquer. then speak loudly to join in inspiring the next one who sits alone on “the night before”.

Speak purposely, confidently, encouragingly and compassionately to those who need to move through those most painful well remembered hours.

Don’t let another One think they are alone.

Love on every person as if they have come through the “night before”.

Wishing you peace and strength,

Terri O’Neill-Borders




Hope and Friendship Foundation
721 Hickory St, Lemont, IL  60439

“Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who
are destitute.  Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the
poor and needy.”
Proverbs 31: 8-9


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